Help Needed for This Family

I am at my wit's end. I was laid off two years ago and have not been able to find a job for two years, from which at he same time i also was dealing with ending a failing and physically/mentally abusive marriage needless to say he does not even acknowledge the fact that he has children who are suffering financially, so with no help from my ex husband, i have no friends and family who is willing to financially help or support me in this terrible time in my life and i am a single mother with eight children who range in ages 16yrs- 3yrs I humbly beg whom ever can help me keep my utilites on; which i have recieved notices for interruption and discontinuance as soon as next week; Please help to feed and clothe my family, I have birthday's back to back, the holiday's approaching and i have nothing to give them, I feel alone and like such a failure, i can't seem to stop crying and even considering immoral options in order to make ends meet for my kid's, they didn't ask to be in such an unfair situation. I thank you in advance for opening your hearts to me and reading my story.